Thoughts about coming home

After coming back to Singapore, I have mixed feelings about my life or how it has been for the past 3 years or so. Obviously i am happy to see my friends but slowly and unknowingly certain bad snippets of my life have crept back to haunt me. It is not the physical object or the imagery or whatever. But what surfaced was the hidden feelings. I have to move forward bravely in order to change my mental state according to Death. But to do that is not easy it would have to be something that just snaps suddenly in my head. I do not know whether it is better to stay lost from society to get myself back but i has been mentioned when I get out of this crazy psyche I will definitely be a changed person again. I have changed so much I just want to change to be a happier me like in the past. Unfortunately, that is impossible as I know its not happening.

All these feelings magnified when I went clubbing with a nice friend R. He was really nice to just get out of the house spontaneously so I thank him for that. I saw some interesting people especially one that looked like Edward Cullen. Was really intrigued by him than I saw a sarong party gay. Just covalent bonded himself on to him and they started dancing thats fine. Next thing you know they were in a heated lips smashing tournament of some sorts. Well the guy was like 190 or something his hair is like Edward Cullen. So intriguing for me. I decided to take a closer look at that spore and I just hate THESE (singlet a bit muscled and obviously mary) things more and more. Its okay to like a W if you know the person slowly and not attached yourself like a morsel on to him. Well, as I watched this horrific tragedy I questioned myself why didn't I just do the same thing as he did. I realised I just couldn't. I felt sad because I knew I did not want to change to be a person to be like that. Its true. the more modern society gets the less human or morally correct you become. I am getting tired of this. Maybe I am just old-fashioned. I dont know I felt depressed. Like I could not fit in properly at all. Even if I wanted to be this slushy drink spilled on him allowing him to lick me I wont be able to do it. There were no conversations between them at all. I am probably just being crazy but as myself I just felt something that no words could describe it.

Home Bound

Alas! after few weeks of non-stop packing I am finally heading back to the land that created tiger beer. I finished my exams quite early, golly it was one of the most horrific moments in my life. I think most of the paper leaves me feeling like a Wot! Well on 24th June the results are going to be mailed to our home addresses. I am going to snatch the letter box keys so as to hold on to it before anyone does knowing WLF, she will just open regardless of whether I approve it or not. The reason I have been taking so long to pack is like I was looking back at forth as to which clothes which stuff to bring back. Only to realise that is there a point to dress up well.... Cos well its Singapore.... I have this weird tendency to have a very bad throat like days before boarding planes. i think it is to do with my mental incapabilities to take a plane. I shopped for stuff and decided to only buy one good thing this time I don't know why I have this unfortunate syndrome of not spending anymore money although I wanted to get a new laptop bag and a carry on board hand carrier. I saw those at Fendi and just wanted to get it so as to satisfy my innermost reminders of " Please get a new hand carrier and a laptop bag". The laptop bag is a necessity. AFter what my sister passed down to me this really shitty piece of shit laptop bag you know those tech savvy people will recommend you to buy just because it looks like those really resistant stuff like Timberland. Well it failed on my alright and the strap broke and it was just my laptop and it was meant to be for a MacBook Pro and I am just using a MacBook nonetheless, it rolled down the steps while I was trying to get up the a higher level.

It seems to me that I have to go home and get a job. I was thinking the next two years are going to be my intern years is it necessary? I really dont want to, but I will do it on certain conditions. It is not a boring office, I get to meet interesting and nice people. One year of the oh horrors people in my Uni is enough for me. I need a reboot to my brain. I should be like finishing my last bit of packing now yet i am here trying to inject life into my old blog which is dead. My eyes are like half closed as I am typing this but my brain seems to not want to sleep. What a weird sensation.

I might as well upload some photos I have taken while during the holidays.





Some centre/square place at CANNABIS Street



Me and Yilin's trip to london to watch John Mayer we had some lunch here at Cha Cha Moon





The review of the food is a 3/5 considering its an asian restaurant in a white place. LoL. I ordered Jasmine tea infused chicken noodles me thinks and Yilin ordered this Hor Fun looking thing i also ordered Taro cake loved it :)

Also since I saw a woman carrying a birkin bag I decided to see how many Londoners could easily be spotted carrying it while walking around.






And this was in span of like 30 minutes. LOL
I did see like loads more while walking around but I was too lazy to use my camera and steal shot everyone.

They also had this weird elephant event whereby all over London they have these cutely graphically designed Dumbos all over the place I only took two of them there were more even in Shopping Malls.




Aren't they dope I think I saw some people actually going around trying to take as many elephantes as they could

As regard the John Mayer videos and photos would not be on ever... lol I couldnt bring in my camera as they said it had a Zoom Lens to big for the show and judging my how Winni will never get online to do anything lol I doubt I will see any photos of us at the concert.

Crazyness

The songs i listen to nowadays...





My absolute fav songs.

Crazy

I have'nt blogged for like ages
Just handed in two courseworks
true enough bad luck has arrived.
My comp died 2 days before my cw was due and everything was gone
tried to do it in the library and i was taking precautionary actions by
saving non stop and in the end the file i saved was like corrupted.
OMG i had to borrow this really good friend of mine the computer
and she had to sleep with the lights on so thanks... but she is a heavy sleeper anyway.

I have been affected by some past Imps (not demons) so weird the world is so small
even my friend from Malaysia/HK knows some of the people i dont really want to know.
Oh well i do like someone now...but oh well think it will not go anywhere


I want to like revamp my blog...

天啊。。。

咳。。。我真的有时觉得问我自己问题出在那里。。。。 可能我自己有错误。。。但是我以竟了我所能配合。。。

好累了。。。每次都没有什么好的结果
是我太固执了？ 今年听说天平座，是整年最不好的。。。
那这么办？

就是人生吗？ 但我一生中对对方要求的很少
我跟本都已经跟不上作业。。。

AH!!!!

OMG rushing for my coursework due in like 3 pm and its 1 21 am now!!!
BLog later!

Here comes Year 2010

Haha officially isnt my blog dead? LOL
Well I am still alive though
Much has happened back. I was back in singapore even got to meet up with Cheryl which she forgot about me.
We became dota maniacs.
Sorry if i didnt have time to meet with everyone i still call a friend.
Just tired.

NEW year? so difficult thrown into a live sitcom lol but i am cool ya'll.
Well uni is pretty tough so much work waiting to be done and with my
Poor time management.
Or maybe lack of motivation.
But I am afraid of dropping into the retail outlet 路线。。。

Anyways i miss DOTA cos everyone has fun playing it.:)
Well i will try and blog more since Bristol is kinda boring nowadays.
My English is still as shiat.
I might try and make this a more modern blob aka more modern blog layout
I am not sure whether to comment on fashion stuff
I might as well offend everyone lol so maybe slowly or a bit.
I am not sure how to talk politely still learning :P

I also put on weight first time in my life i actually reached 60.1kg
It was so scary. Gym and dance and pills here I come.
This week having the lectures I had to try and concentrate like a crazy person scared of being distracted.
In addition the lectures are so fast cos they only last 50 minutes for sometimes one long topic and you have to get it or NOT get it
Now i actually bring my laptop which i previously prefer to write but i think typing is easier cos i only press
When i write i think i am thinking of lots of stuff like spacing and how the words look.
So crazies

I recommend the movie DAYBREAKERS!
Nice good ethan hawke is in there havent seeen him in movies so long
its about vampire well so .... go figure
its lots of gruesome images lol
But they are funny ones nonethelss
Maybe i should recommend a movie every week

Or some funny movies for everyone to watch ya'll!

My new year resolution is to have the utmost concentration i can sustain during lectures and please i want to be a radiant and beautiful person. LOL